Kehidupan Sebenar

Hye all. Lama sudah tak update blog ni yer. Well~ banyak pekerjaan yang harus diselesaikan terlebih daulu nampaknya. Ye. Sekarang dah bulan Mac. Maseh lagi jadi 'penganggur'. Apa nak jadi saya pun tak tau. First of all, saya nak bagitau tentang result SPM saya yang sudah lepas nih. Yurgh! Memang memuaskan lah tapi tak cukup puas juga nih. Result saya, 1A- 3C+ 1C 2E 2G. So, I've to repeat my MATHS again and again. And, I was like dumb! Why why why and why? I know, I had lost my focus before. So many trouble I had get. Yeah, for example. Him! Yes that retarded boy! You know who is he, okay? He make me lost focus in my study. So, well. Thank you for it dude! I'm totally fucking hate you like hell! Dumbass you little retarded boy. Well, this is it. Thank you :)

My heart say

Hey, semua. Hari ni, saya nak cita ngan korang pasal diri saya. Uhkay! Sebenarnya, saya nak bagitau yang.. Saya betol-betol rindu kat dia. Tak tau lah, dari tadi air mata saya m'ngalir tak henti henti. Samada saya masih sayang dia ataupun tak, saya pun tidak tahu. Saya tau, selama saya bersama dia saya tidak pernah nak dengar kata-kata daripada dia. Saya degil. Keras kepala. Tapi, biarlah benda dah pun b'lalu kan? Takpat nak tarik balik. Macam mana saya nak cakap, erk? Uhkay! Memang saya sumpah sumpah dia waktu saya PUTUS dengan dia. Tapi, dalam hati ni sakit sangat sebab saya sumpah orang yang betol-betol saya sayang. Please, don't let my tears fall down! I hate this part! I don't want crying like before! Please. Tiap kali saya nangis, saya pasti t'ingatkan dia. Sebab apa? :') Dulu, kalau dia marah saya. Saya diam saja terus dia cium kening saya and peluk saya. Eh! Saya rindu nak belai rambut dia. Saya rindu nak m'hidang JUS OREN faverat dia. Waktu maseh syok b'kapel. Saya tak henti-henti beli JUS OREN tu untuk dia. Cause, saya tau. Dia pasti suka. Sekarang, saya dah jarang beli. Siapa nak minum lagi? Setiap benda yang saya buat mesti ada kena-mengena dengan dia. Aww! I can't tell you how IMISSYOUSODUMB! Jahat macam mana pun dia kat saya, tuduh macam mana pun, kasar macam mana pun. Dia masih ada hati nurani lagi. Dia care sangat dengan orang yang dia sayang. Uhkay! Saya harap dia bahagia selalu, d'samping orang-orang yang dia sayang. :') Oh, Lord. Please forgive all His sins. Make Him more better than before. Do give Him one more chance to let Him change to better one. I hope so. Amen~ And, yang saya tak sampai hati. Gambar-gambar, video-video dia. Semua dah saya hapuskan. Takda sisa-sisa baki-baki lagi yang tinggal. Semuanya dah t'kubur. Yang dapat m'buat saya ingat pada Si Dia, lagu lagu faverat dia. :') Pesanan saya untuk dia * Tiyut, jangan nakal-nakal lagi okei? Study hard let your future be bright more better than other. I miss you a lot. Jaga orang-orang yang kau sayang okei? I'll be always pray for your happiness with your only one. :') Jaga rantai yang saya beri dulu tu okei? Cincin tu. Kalau masih adalah. God bless you always! Have a blast Tiyut. :') * Uhkay! Setelah brapa bulan putus, baru skarang saya mulai m'rindui dia. God, He's my last LOVER, my last HERO, my last SCREAMO boy. No one else can replace Him. And, I hope one day, I'll be meet with someone just like Him. I don't need the face look like Him. I just want His attitude only. Uhkay, this for today. Goodnite, yall's!

Where is the LOVE?

Love? What did man do with love? Did they love each other like Romeo and Juliet? Ahaa~ We as a man, don't know about love yet. Only God know. Yeah! God know better than us, okay? Urmm~ My topic for today is about hurts. What hurts? Did love hurts us so much? No, aite? Hehehe. In my opinion, love was not blind at all. Love was really beautiful. And, we as a man can imagine how beautiful was love for us. Don't ever blame love. Man should be blame on this situation. We as man cruel to love. Not love cruel to us. You get what I mean now? Yeah, people! If you have a boyfriend nor girlfriend. You should appreciate them, okay? Don't hurts them so much. Don't cruel to them. Or not, one day you'll be regret when you're losing them. And, at that time the one that had been hurts will laugh at you! Hahaha. So, now. Ohh~ Btw, I don't wanna be a girl that easy to fall in love, eh. I mean, I don't easily believe in boys anymore. Ok, thank you. :)

Smoking

hell! I'm tired of connect to this blog! Suck! Luckily, today I didn't out of mood just because of you! Bahh.. Today, I'm going to talk about smoking. Yep! I try to stop smoking liaw. Ohh! Damnass! Dumbass! I can't!!! What can I do now? I want to try that type of pills. You know what pills, aite? The one that always shown in TV. HAHA NiQuitine. Yah! I want to try it. Some of my friends said that, my throat will get easy to itchy. Ohh. Maybe that is the effect of it. So, how now Yee? You still want to try it? Yeah, sure! In another hand, my friends said it doesn't work at all. So, let's try it babeh. If it doesn't work. Try to kill myself then! Ohhh, no man! What should I do. What? What? And, what?!! Nothing can't stop me to smoke. And, my friends also can't make me stop! All I need is to change myself to stop! That's enough! Awww~ I can't stand anymore. Dah, let it be. I hope, I can't stop from now onward. Ohh~ God. Do make me strong enough to change like before. I want to get back my old attitude.An attitude that never be a bad girl like now! Now, I'm really a bad girl! You hear it people. I'm a bad bad bad person! Okay, bye.

Good Morning

Heyyy! Good Morning my Borneo-Island people. Yeahhh! What a pretty morning for me today. HAHA Bahhh.. Today I'm not going to school. Why? Not because I'm so lazy to go to school. There's nothing I gonna do at class later. Study by myself at school? Yeahhh.. Kinda not study at all. Talking to my friends a whole day long in the class. Better I'm not go and study by myself at home alone. Nobody will talking to me, aite? Just myself here. Mummy working ody. My little sister schooling also. I'm here alone. So, don't waste many time Yee. 7more days to SPM. Hell, yeah!! I can't wait for it! BOGGIS BUNCE BEAN! I love that words. HAHA So, after this I will turn on the TV. Not watching cartoon or stupid show. Mummy ask me to watching SPM TUTOR TV. Yeahhh! Study with TV. Talking to myself then. HAHA. Okay, now. Got to go liaw. Bye Bye! Good Morning BOGGIS BUNCE BEAN!